Poly What?

P is back on collar.  I know this because I came across his profile whilst taking down one of the “bait” one’s I set up.

Same username.

However under what he is looking for, or interested in, he has listed….Poly household.

What a fucking jack ass.

If he couldn’t handle me talking, being friends with or interacting with men on any level, then how the hell is he going to handle a poly relationship?  

He used to get a bit judgey with me whenever I would watch documentaries on the whole poly thing.  

(I find it very fascinating….however I know that I could never engage in a poly relationship.)

Anyways, again.  Just another contradiction as to what he says and what he does.

1 month since I last saw him……2 weeks?  no contact.

I wish I could say it’s getting easier.  

It’s not.



~ by spanglebaby52 on January 27, 2014.

9 Responses to “Poly What?”

  1. I’d like to hug you… 🙂

  2. Sorry you are going through this.

    “I wish I could say it’s getting easier.

    It’s not.”

    Contact by proxy (looking at things online about him, etc.) is still considered contact. It’s great that you haven’t spoken to him directly in a couple of weeks, but until you detox from contact by proxy, you’ll still continue to spin. I know it’s hard, but get rid of all of the baiting or anything else that keeps you connected to him. It will do nothing but hurt you. If you want things to get easier you must take this critical step.

    He’s shown you his true colours. That won’t ever change no matter what you do. It’s hard to stomach and it’s very difficult to deal with, but I am confident you can do it. If I could, anyone can.


    • I’m in the process of getting rid of all things proxy, and it just sucks. Even when I am not aware of whatever bullshit he may be up to now, it still sits with me. I could be out and about, and the thought of him is still with me.
      I know this is gonna take time. I know the road I must walk down and all the necessary steps….but I still don’t like it. I don’t want to let go. But I must.
      Thank you.

    • OMG! Contact by proxy! Yeeeesssssssssssss Like… asking your mutual friends what he’s up to now… I’m so guilty of this. Usually anyhow. I don’t think I’ve done it much, if at all, this break up.

  3. 😦 Sending you support and hugs.

  4. It may not be better yet, but it will be. xx

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